Anxiety, Fear, God is Present, Pain, process

Beautiful Disaster

God is our refuge and strength,
    always ready to help in times of trouble.
So we will not fear when earthquakes come
    and the mountains crumble into the sea.
Let the oceans roar and foam.
    Let the mountains tremble as the waters surge! 

Psalm 46:1-3

This is what I call a beautiful disaster: A mess so big that will leave me no choice but to look at God. Disastrous, of course, because your whole world falls apart. Yet, beautiful because it leads you to God. It is the mess that leads us to recognize that we are in need of a Savior. God uses disaster to let us get closer to him. If everything would always go well in our lives, we would think we are self-sufficient and not seek the Lord. It is part of humanity, we like to think we always have it all together. Yet, God allows disaster to happen so it can teach us to seek him fervently.

The intimacy you develop in your moments of disaster will carry you through when life goes back to normal. It is the storms that teach us that God is our refuge. It is the moment of powerlessness that teach us that God is our strength. It is the moment we are disappointed by others that teach us that God is always ready. No matter what rises against us, we can rest assure that God will be there. This allows us to shift our attitudes towards disaster. Just as the Psalmist says: “So we will not fear when earthquakes come and the mountains crumble into the sea. Let the mountains tremble as the waters surge” for God is our refuge, strength and always ready. In other words, this attitude allows us to tell disaster “bring it on” because we may not be able to handle it but we know a God who can.

I have always had an issue when people say “God will not give you anything you can’t handle”. This is not found in the Bible and it is one of the lies we have been spoon fed growing up, implying a self-sufficient Gospel. God will allow for things that we cannot handle come our way. Why? So we may learn to depend on Him. He’s got it. After all, we can do all things through Christ, who gives us strength. Not through ourselves, not through our power or ability but through Christ alone. When I can’t, I AM can.

If you are reading this and you are in a disaster, shift your eyes to Jesus. The disaster is beautiful in itself. Believe me, it will lead you to Jesus when you learn to see above the mess. If your beautiful disaster is over, keep your eyes on Jesus. Do not engage in a pattern of self-sufficiency when things are going well. He is your sustenance and will see you through should disaster rise up again.

God is Present, Self-Esteem

Reckless Love

For the Lord your God is living among you.
    He is a mighty savior.
He will take delight in you with gladness.
    With his love, he will calm all your fears.[a]
    He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.


This piece is dedicated to all who need a reminder of God’s love. I encourage to read this piece and listen to the song below. Please share with someone who needs this reminder today.

The love of God surpasses the understanding of our limited human mind. It can be very easy at times to feel forgotten by God because he hasn’t granted the petitions of our hearts yet. Despite this, him not granting us those petitions is a sign of love in itself. The Lord loves us so much and has so many great plans for us that he will withhold a petition from being fulfilled if he believes that is going to cause more harm than good at the moment. That is the true love of a good father. He hasn’t forsaken you; He has heard you even when you feel unheard.

Love is the mere essence of God. He created us out of his love for us. His love is so deep that it penetrates the hardest heart. His love for his children is immeasurable. God’s love is so perfect. Many times we may feel disappointed by God or that he is not good. We must remember that despite our feelings, the absence of a manifestation does not equal that an attribute of someone does not exists. Maybe you do not feel God’s love or his goodness, yet he is still good, HE IS LOVE. His attributes don’t change, even when our perspective of him changes.

His love calms all of our fears and he takes delight on his children. Even in the moments of loneliness, God is among you. In the moment you feel lost, he is your mighty savior. In the moments of sadness, he delights in you with gladness. When life is uncertain and you feel scared, he will calm all of your fears with his love. When you have no voice left to sing, or cry out, let his song fill your heart with joy.

Anxiety, direction, Fear, God is Present, Trials

Peace Be Still

And he awoke and rebuked the wind and said to the sea, “Peace! Be still!” And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm.

Mark 4:39

When I thought about this past week, all that could come to mind is the song “Peace be Still” by Belonging Co. ft. Lauren Daigle. Uncertainty and I are not best friends and last week culminated with news that left me thinking “what if?”… All I could think was “peace, be still”. I just wanted to share the lyrics below. I know that they will minister to someone, as much as they ministered to me. I invite you to read them, sing along, meditate on them as you play the YouTube link below.

I don’t want to be afraid
Every time I face the waves
//I don’t want to be afraid//

I don’t want to fear the storm 
Just because I hear the roar
//I don’t want to fear the storm//

Peace be still
Say the word and I will
Set my feet upon the sea 
Till I’m dancing in the deep
Oh peace be still
You are here so it is well
Even when my eyes can’t see 
I will trust the voice that speaks

I’m not gonna be afraid 
‘Cause these waves are only waves
//I’m not gonna be afraid//

I’m not gonna fear the storm
You [Jesus] are greater than it’s roar
//I’m not gonna fear the storm//
I’m not gonna fear at all

///Let faith, rise up
Oh heart, believe
Let faith rise up in me///

Be at peace today. Choose peace. Do not let your heart be troubled. Jesus is in the midst, even when you don’t see the way, even when you do not know the outcome. The waves are only waves.

direction, God's will, Identity, Leadership, Obedience

Know your Rank

Soldiers don’t get tied up in the affairs of civilian life, for then they cannot please the officer who enlisted them.

2 Timothy 2:4

One word that God has placed in my heart for 2019 is Deployment. Last year was a season of preparation for many missions that I will have to accomplish this year, in many areas of my life. I know some of those assignments already and some are still a mystery to me. That’s ok.

As part of my preparation for future “missions”, as I like to call these assignments, the Spirit has led me to read Paul’s Pastoral Epistles. My journey started at 1 Timothy and has continued with the assistance of a devotional plan from one of my favorite apps, First 5 (When I “grow up” I want to be like Lysa Terkeust). In my study, I came across the verse above and many things that the Lord had placed in my heart started to make sense.

When a soldier is deployed for a mission, he cannot get tied up with the affairs of common life. This doesn’t make the soldier better than anyone in the sense of their humanity and dignity. However, this means that the soldier is held to a higher standard than a civilian; therefore, his or her focus should be on the mission, not in getting caught up with other daily life matters that will deter him/her from completing the mission the General has commanded him/her with.

This verse came alive as I realized that there were some things, people, conversations, books, media, attitudes and commitments that I had to say “no” to because they were misguiding me from the mission that God had placed upon my heart. This year I have had to leave things behind that are good, in fact, great, yet they are civilian matters in comparison to what I should be focusing on at the moment.

This year I had to realize that my priority is pleasing the General of Generals, God. No one else. Just Him. I have received “orders” left and right from others who mean well, orders that have put in question the orders that my General placed upon my life. But like a good soldier that knows the voice of his General, I shall only listen to the voice of mines, Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

If God has entrusted you with an assignment and/or ministry that goes beyond your imagination, your ability or beyond yourself, this message is for you. Be encouraged. Not getting tied up in civilian matters can feel lonely and the feeling of being left out, rejected, can quickly creep in. Having to set boundaries because you know God has called you for a different mission than your loved ones can hurt. Having to deal with people questioning your decisions, talking about your character and subconsciously even waiting for you to fail hurts. Despite all of it, KNOW YOUR RANK.

God has called you for special assignments that not many will understand. Such assignments may lead you, actually, WILL lead you to persecution and suffering. Whoever tells you living a godly life is peaches and cream is not preaching the true gospel. As you go through it, know your rank. In other words, know what the Lord has called you to do, called you to BE. Make no apologies for speaking God’s truth. Make no apologies for decisions that are Spirit led. Make no apologies for boundaries that need to be placed. Make no apologies for relationships that need to end. Don’t get caught up in civilian matters. Don’t get caught up in arguments or conversations that will not bear fruit or even help you fulfill God’s purpose for your life.

Know your Rank. As long as you are working under the directives of He who enlisted you, you are in the right path.